0:00my son and his friend are a couple how do I let them know it's okay
0:02I've been a single dad since my son was 12 his mother isn't in the picture
0:05he's 20 now studying
0:06engineering at a university eight hours away when quarantine
0:08hit in March he called and asked if his roommate Aiden
0:10could come stay with us too
0:11Aiden's family is back in Canada and he'd be stuck
0:12alone in their apartment I said of course they've been here six weeks now and they think they're being
0:16subtle the first week I didn't notice anything
0:17they kept to themselves mostly my son showing Aiden
0:19around town both of them doing online classes
0:21from the kitchen table week two is when things started clicking
0:23one morning Aiden's making coffee and my son walks in morning babe
0:25Aiden says and freezes tries to cover it with a cough I mean uh
0:28morning man I'm reading the newspaper
0:29I don't look up just say morning boys like I heard nothing
0:31I see my son's face go red in my peripheral vision
0:33Thursday night we're watching some action movie
0:35lights are off I'm in the recliner they're on the couch
0:36I get up to grab a beer and in the blue light from the tea
0:38I see my son's arm around Aiden's shoulders
0:40they spring apart like teenagers caught at prom I grab my beer
0:42sit back down anyone else want one no thanks they both say in unison
0:45voices a little too high Friday morning I wake up at 5 a m
0:47for my run like always I've done this routine
0:49for eight years ever since I got sober and fought for custody
0:51something makes me check on my son
0:52old habit from when he was younger and had nightmares
0:54I crack his bedroom door open
0:55they're both asleep in his bed Aiden's head on my son's chest
0:57my son's arm around him I stand there for maybe 10 seconds
0:59then I close the door quietly
1:00and go for my run here's the thing nobody knows I've suspected
1:02since he was 15 maybe earlier the way he talked about his
1:04friend Tanner in high school how he never brought girls
1:06around even when his friends did
1:07the posters in his room weren't of models or actresses
1:10I didn't care I just wanted him happy but I waited
1:11for him to tell me I figured
1:12he would when he was ready Saturday passes Sunday morning I'm making
1:15breakfast and they come down together hair messy both in sweatpants
1:17morning my son says morning I say back Aiden immediately goes to pour
1:20coffee
1:20won't make eye contact the tension in the kitchen is suffocating
1:22Sunday afternoon I'm in the garage working on my truck Aiden
1:24comes out to throw something away he sees me and turns to leave Aiden
1:27I call out hand me that wrench he does his hands
1:28shaking a little we stand there in silence
1:30for a minute I'm pretending to examine a belt
1:31how long have you and my son been together
1:32I ask not looking up I hear him inhale sharply sir I we're not
1:35I mean I look at him Aiden I'm not stupid
1:36and I'm not angry his eyes are wide panic two years he finally
1:39whispers we've been together two years
1:40I nod slowly that's a long time please don't he starts
1:42what be happy my son found someone who clearly cares
1:44about him I set down my tools
1:45I see how you look at him Aiden I see how he smiles
1:47around you Aiden's breathing
1:48hard now like he might cry or run I grabbed two beers from the garage
1:50fridge hand him one you seem like a good guy I say my son's
1:52lucky Mister Warren
1:53I swear we weren't trying to disrespect your house the guest
1:55room is not being used I cut him off seems like a waste
1:57when you two are clearly more comfortable in his room Aiden
1:59just stares at me you don't have to hide
2:00here I tell him not in my house his voice cracks
2:02he was scared to tell you that hits me in the chest
2:04scared of me he didn't want to disappoint you I have to look away for a second
2:06Aiden listen to me I meet his eyes my son survived
2:08things no kid should survive his mother's boyfriend I stopped myself
2:11that's not my story to tell
2:12but I fought like hell to get him out of that house I got clean for him changed
2:14my entire life for him Aiden nods waiting
2:16you think who he loves is going to change how I feel about him after everything
2:18Aiden's eyes are watering now I just want him happy I say and he's clearly
2:21happy with you the garage door opens
2:22my son walks in dad have you seen he stops
2:24sees Aiden's face what's wrong Aiden can't speak he's full on
2:26crying now my son
2:27looks at me with your fear dad what did you your boyfriend
2:29and I were just talking I say calmly the garage goes silent
2:31my son's face drains of color dad I can explain explain
2:33what that you've been together two years
2:35that you're happy I walk over to him son
2:36I don't need an explanation
2:37he's frozen I need you to know something I
2:39continue there is nothing and I mean nothing
2:40you could ever tell me that would make me love you less
2:42his breath hits
2:43you're my son that's it that's all that matters he breaks completely
2:45breaks down and I hug him like I did when he was 12 and first came to live with me Aiden
2:48still standing there crying too I reach out and pull him into the hug
2:51welcome to the family
2:51I tell him all three of us are crying in my garage
2:53on a Sunday afternoon my son pulls
2:54back wiping his eyes you really don't care
2:56care that you found someone who makes you smile
2:57like that I shake my head I'm grateful