0:00the last time we met
0:01we agreed that I was not going to write to you
0:03so I don't write to you I send you a voice note
0:07happy birthday
0:08how you've been how single life has treated you
0:11hopefully not so well
0:12no don't think
0:13in case you were in doubt I was fine
0:15I also keep very busy I have been
0:17making the effort to go out more
0:19know and try to become more social
0:21when you left I realized how lonely I was.
0:25the only thing I am
0:26but well,
0:27what happened to you
0:28how have you been
0:29what are you going to do today with whom you are going to celebrate
0:32yesterday came the turntable that I was going to give you this year
0:35I would keep it
0:35but it reminds me a lot of you I put it in the basement.
0:38along with everything that reminds me of you
0:40that which I don't want to see but I can't throw away either
0:44it was many years
0:47I can't give you the turntable
0:49but if I already have your attention I can ask you this question
0:53you see me
0:55you see me the way I see you
0:57on the street in cafes in transfers
1:00the corners of my eyes project you without warning
1:04I swear I see you
1:05I swear
1:07at the beginning I cursed it,
1:09now I have learned to see it.
1:12and be with him
1:14it is true that you taught me to lose
1:16cutting is not a conversation
1:17is an endless series of destructions.
1:20distressing is removing your gifts from the office is deleting
1:23your profile to turn off your car connection cell phone
1:26cut what a weak word
1:28as if it was a thread that you split
1:29in two with school scissors
1:31an ingredient of the unconscious people of this country that
1:34and hide the culture of the whole good all perfect
1:36women are superfluous,
1:37it's not that it hurts,
1:38it burns me.
1:39it burns me it tears me to pieces
1:40and every time I find something of yours
1:42hidden in my house and I have to bury it with everything else.
1:44another part of me screams cries and dies and it's like this
1:47full of razors looking for help
1:49I say help me
1:50does it hurt someone please take this away from me and life tells you
1:54no way one day you will be disappointed
2:00after a while
2:01the same pain that burned me inside
2:04is no longer a fire
2:06is now a bonfire
2:08where I can sit
2:10and finding you is strange
2:12thank so much pain the fire burns yes but
2:16also shelters me when it's cold
2:18also illuminates the dark way in front of me
2:20now I see that I am never alone
2:22I have the torch
2:23made for all the love you gave me over so many years.
2:26I try to use it not to cause fires
2:28but to light candles everywhere
2:31accompanying those who hurt
2:32listening to them
2:33and being there for them
2:35you taught me that this way one should only love intensely
2:38passionately entirely
2:39without fear of burning me then you taught me
2:41that the one who loves wins
2:43the one who falls in love and the one who gets his hopes up
2:45I send this audio to wish a happy birthday to the girl made of stars.
2:50I keep learning from you I am
2:53because you are
2:56pernah
3:00are signed
3:01voice notes also no truth I say it does not make sense
3:03because it is sent to you by the person who
3:06haha