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0:00I want to apologise in advance
0:02because this is the best poem I've ever written in my life.
0:06But it is also one of the longest.
0:08So if you are willing to sit through it,
0:10I think that it will change your perspective on a lot of things.
0:13I wrote this in one of the darkest times of my life,
0:17but I found peace in one of the things I carry a strong passion for,
0:22which is writing.
0:23I've been experiencing a terrible writer's block over the past month.
0:27Anytime I pick up a pencil or even a keyboard,
0:30I have so much to say, but no format advanced enough to say it.
0:33How can you possibly feel so strongly about something,
0:36but at the same time feel unplugged,
0:38completely and utterly disconnected from a passion that a week ago
0:41came easy for you?
0:43Like thoughts gracefully flowed from your mind and through your fingers,
0:46which bleed out onto a page,
0:47creating art.
0:49Another thing. Imagery and hyperbole.
0:52Two words I repeat back to myself in an attempt to spark up a perfect word
0:55painting. I ask god about this feeling silently
0:59in the comfort of my dark room and in his presence.
1:02I wanted answers as to why this has been so hard for me,
1:05and I remembered. When deep in prayer
1:07and in the midst of your requests and praises and longing,
1:09never forget to listen.
1:11Spend a good five minutes in silence with your focus on god.
1:14And listen. He then spoke. Well,
1:17what's been bothering you?
1:18You cannot create art out of a feeling you are forcing upon yourself.
1:22It must be real. So I ask you,
1:23my child, what worries you tonight?
1:25What, deep down
1:26is causing you to stay awake with me?
1:28Let me begin.
1:30Romans 1.
1:32You therefore have no excuse,
1:35you who pass judgement on someone else.
1:37For at whatever point you judge another,
1:39you are condemning yourself.
1:41Because you who pass judgement do the same things.
1:44Now,
1:44we know that God's judgement against those who do such things is based on truth.
1:48So when you, a mere human being,
1:51pass judgement on them and yet do the same things.
1:54Do you think you will escape God's judgement?
1:56Now, listen to that back to yourself.
1:58And really pick apart the lines.
2:00Allow yourself to not just listen,
2:01but absorb. Now,
2:03back to me. Just the other day,
2:05I was told that no matter how many times I write in my Bible.
2:08That sin is still my life.
2:10Followed by a list of imperfections in my walk with god.
2:13I took a deep breath and contemplated whether this was meant to be an insult.
2:16A stab at my heart where he knew it was tender.
2:19But I shook my head in disappointment.
2:21Due to the clear circumstances of this person.
2:23And at the uneducated individual speaking before me.
2:26I had to make a choice. Was I going to get angry,
2:29or was I Going to reflect Jesus seems like a simple choice,
2:32but it can be very hard. Proving your point by feeding your flesh
2:35versus proving your point by nurturing someone with the teachings of the Lord.
2:39What I now have to say to that statement is,
2:41would you also tell a cancer patient
2:43that no matter how many times they enter the hospital,
2:45that they will always be sick?
2:46You would not. It's simple.
2:48God is love, and love is god.
2:50Church is a place for broken people,
2:52sinful people, people who feel like they're too far gone
2:54and too disgusting and ashamed to sit before the Lord.
2:57It is a place who wholeheartedly
3:00is full of people who believe they aren't worth it to be saved,
3:04to experience love and forgiveness.
3:06And so tonight, I let that go,
3:08that single sentence that cut me so raw,
3:10and I allow god to have his way with that.
3:13These are all just words. But if I've Learned anything,
3:15it's that words can be the most powerful weapon that we all bear.
3:18Plus, I've been told I have a way with them.
3:21So this won't have its usual witty,
3:23rhyming tune for that. I'm so sorry.
3:25But I'm doing what god told me that night
3:27and speaking with the feelings on my chest,
3:29the feelings that are so real and frightening
3:31that typing them out brings tears to my waterline.
3:34I hate to get so bold and depressing,
3:36but one more life lesson. That becomes more familiar to me everyday is death.
3:40How can one person be breathing,
3:42walking and living so graciously,
3:44loving one moment and be gone the very next?
3:47How empty and how lonesome
3:48is the awareness that you never know when your last time speaking to someone is.
3:52Because no one tells you that the person you high five today
3:55won't ever touch your hand again.
3:58I recently received a diagnosis of a loved one that is not recoverable
4:02and that shifted my whole world.
4:04I feel so lost in such a big scary world.
4:06Because how am I supposed to live with nothing but a happy New Year?
4:09K 2026 should be pretty amazing.
4:11Love you, musho.
4:12Text message that I did not respond to.
4:15How can I go on wishing I had hugged a person tighter
4:18before I lost my chance to ever again?
4:21Because how could he say that?
4:22So happily and effortlessly joyful
4:24knowing that 2026 could be the year that I lose him.
4:28The beautiful thing about god and all of this
4:30is that no amount of prayer can change or take back an illness like this.
4:34God has no control or will over death like this.
4:36It is not a punishment for sin or for the better.
4:40But just because nothing can be done to change something so gut wrenching
4:43and inevitably stolen by the world
4:45doesn't mean faith cannot be present.
4:48Because I have faith that god will hold me strong.
4:50That god Will rid him of his fears and ease his mind
4:52before eternally resting with him in heaven.
4:55I have faith that my prayers have power to guard mine and my family's hearts.
4:59It is the strength of the Lord that keeps me going in times like this,
5:02times where I question the meaning of life at all.
5:05So I pray for peace. Peace for my family and I.
5:07Peace for my friends. Peace for old lovers.
5:09Peace for enemies. And any individuals who watch these videos
5:12and shake their heads or boast in laughter.
5:14I pray peace over you and all of your families too.
5:18Hold your people close today and tomorrow,
5:20and should there be a day after,
5:22hug them even tighter. Give your husbands and wives one last kiss
5:25and go play hide and seek with your sisters.
5:27Even though you're fifteen.
5:29Perform these actions before they transfer from the present to the past,
5:31and you find yourself wishing on stars and birthday candles
5:34that you would have stopped being so selfish and so angry.
5:37And that you would have just loved them.
5:40That brings me to my next anger.
5:42I don't wanna be so angry anymore.
5:45And I haven't been leaning on god the way I should,
5:47and definitely not in the way I preach.
5:49My heart's so full of anger,
5:50hangs heavy down to my stomach,
5:51and I can feel it transparently every time it breaks.
5:54So with that, I don't wanna be angry anymore.
5:57Especially Not towards people
5:59and not towards a beautiful life that isn't promised forever.
6:02I don't wanna be bitter and I don't wanna be angry,
6:05because that is never who I was.
6:06I cover it up well. As if you were to ask those around me.
6:09I can be the loudest in the room and carry the biggest smile across my face.
6:13Even in times like this, where I have never felt more alone and sad.
6:18It seems nothing can go my way lately.
6:20Not even the things I never failed to succeed at.
6:23School and my writing. Because those two things
6:26are the only things that give me back what I pour into them.
6:29I study and listen and analyse emotions and vibes around me exceptionally well.
6:34I keep mostly A's and partially b's
6:36because when my life crumbles in my hands,
6:38I can always pull up my grades
6:39and smile at one of the very few outcomes I'm still able to control.
6:43And poetry like this is where I can take my pain and brokenness
6:47and turn it into something so beautiful.
6:48But I cannot write and I cannot bring up my C in biology for the life of me.
6:53And my friends decided that.
6:54We aren't speaking first world problems, right?
6:57But not for me. Because failure for me isn't the same as it is to you.
7:01Not when I fall short to even the things I have always excelled at.
7:04So nothing is in my control anymore.
7:07Vulnerable and helpless. I'm writing this tonight
7:10desperately trying to get in touch with my heart that has grown numb.
7:13Meaning it's difficult to cry.
7:15And hard to feel anything other than anger and darkness.
7:17And even those emotions feel out of reach.
7:19Coming from a girl whose energy lights up a room.
7:21I'm very scared.
7:24Not of myself, but of the storm taking over her.
7:27After all, I will get back up,
7:29if it takes a year or a lifetime.
7:31Seasons pass, and I always pick myself back up.
7:35I'm strong, beautiful,
7:36happy, bubbly and full of life.
7:38Full of Jesus.
7:40Just because I got a 60 on the test I studied so hard for,
7:43the boy I love doesn't love me anymore.
7:45I've disappointed my parents,
7:46my friends, myself.
7:47Just because god is taking home people I was never ready to grieve,
7:50or because I cannot feel my emotions,
7:52all the same, does not mean this is where I give up.
7:55Because seventh grade me would be so proud of how I kept going.
7:59And I can never find it in my heart to let her down.
8:02Not now, not ever.
8:04So tomorrow, I'm going to wake up.
8:07I'm going to curl my hair and my eyelashes
8:09and maybe even make my bed for my mom.
8:11I will retake my test and text my papa how much I miss him.
8:16And before school ends, I'm going to smile at a stranger.
8:19Because you never know how deep people Are drowning.
8:22Even those you think know how to swim.
8:25It is with great love, faith and hurt that I'm writing this.
8:30But I hope it finds you well.
8:32And I hope that you know you are never alone.
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Viral Breakdown
Hook (first 3 seconds)
- Verbatim line: "I want to apologise in advance because this is the best poem I've ever written in my life."
- Hook pattern: Bold claim + apology combo (creates intrigue through self-deprecating confidence)
- Why it stops scrolling: The apology signals vulnerability, but the "best poem I've ever written" is a high-stakes promise. Viewers are curious to see if the content can match the boast. The emotional tension of "darkest times" + "writer's block" adds urgency.
Emotional Rhythm
- Beats in order:
- Curiosity (opening bold claim + writer's block confession)
- Vulnerability (prayer, listening to God, personal attack from judgmental person)
- Tension (cancer patient analogy, death diagnosis of loved one)
- Suspense (text message about "happy New Year" that went unanswered)
- Resonance (universal grief: "you never know when your last time speaking to someone is")
- Climax ("I don't wanna be angry anymore" — emotional release)
- Relief + Call to Action (smile at a stranger, hug your people, keep going)
- Twist moment: The shift from "God's judgment" to "God has no control over death" — a theological curveball that deepens trust.
- Climax: "I don't wanna be angry anymore" — the rawest, most relatable line.
Keyword Density
- Strongest repeated words/phrases:
- God / Lord / Jesus (algorithmic reach: religious/spiritual content has high engagement)
- Anger / angry (emotional pull: universal feeling)
- Peace (emotional pull + algorithmic: a soothing, shareable concept)
- Death / dying / gone (emotional pull: high-stakes, taboo)
- Love / loved (emotional pull + algorithmic: core human emotion)
- Writing / poem / words (niche identity: writer community)
- Control / helpless / vulnerable (emotional pull: anxiety/mental health)
- Faith (algorithmic + emotional: bridges spiritual and personal)
- Hug / hold / kiss (action-oriented: shareable, practical)
- Alone / lonely (emotional pull: relatable isolation)
Why It Spreads
- Relatability through specific pain: "I got a 60 on the test I studied so hard for, the boy I love doesn't love me anymore" — these are hyper-specific but universally felt failures. Viewers see themselves.
- Religious + grief crossover: The video blends Christian testimony with raw grief (terminal diagnosis, unanswered texts). This doubles the audience: faith communities + people processing loss.
- Call to action embedded in emotion: "Go play hide and seek with your sisters even though you're fifteen" — a visceral, shareable instruction. It's not a generic "like and subscribe" — it's a behavior viewers want to screenshot and send.
- Twist of vulnerability: The creator admits to being "the loudest in the room" while drowning. This shatters the "perfect Christian" stereotype, making the video feel authentic and unscripted.
- Closure + hope in one video: The ending ("I will get back up") provides emotional catharsis. Viewers feel they've been on a journey, not just a rant. This increases saves and shares.
What You Can Steal
- Start with a bold, vulnerable claim — not a question. "I want to apologise in advance because this is the best poem I've ever written" works better than "Have you ever felt writer's block?" because it creates immediate curiosity and stakes.
- Use a specific, mundane detail to anchor a huge emotion. "Text message that I did not respond to" about a loved one's terminal diagnosis is more powerful than a generic "I lost someone." Specificity makes grief tangible.
- End with a small, actionable behavior — not a vague hope. "I'm going to smile at a stranger" is repeatable and shareable. It gives viewers something to do, not just feel. This increases engagement (comments like "I did this today").
