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0:00Worst part about hating yourself
0:01is when you realize you've been treating yourself
0:04worse than anyone who ever hurt you.
0:06Like you're so quick to forgive everyone else for everything,
0:09but you've been holding this hate against yourself for years
0:12and you don't even remember how it started.
0:14You just know it's there and it's heavy
0:16and it shows up in every mirror,
0:18every quiet moment, every time someone tries to love you.
0:21And you just think, why?
0:23Like what is wrong with me that I can't just accept it?
0:26Why I can't just love myself?
0:28And then there's the self harm part,
0:30which isn't always physical.
0:31Sometimes it's staying in rooms that shrink you.
0:34It's working until your bones ache.
0:36It pushing away the people who actually see you
0:38because being seen feels like being dissected.
0:41And you'd rather be invisible
0:42than have someone confirm what you already believe about yourself.
0:45And the scariest part is when it gets quiet
0:47and you have to sit with yourself
0:49and you realize you don't even like sitting with you
0:51and you wonder if you'll ever feel home in your own body
0:54or if this is just it, just surviving,
0:56just existing, just waiting for something to finally feel different.
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