0:00I think one of the things that I love
0:02more than all of the stuff I'm passionate about
0:05is probably talking about the stuff that I'm passionate about,
0:07because I just feel like I'm a person who loves things so deeply.
0:10And over the years I've been alive,
0:12I've been creating sort of a collage of my personality,
0:15full of things that made me who I am today.
0:18So this poem is called My Favourites.
0:21People ask why I choose the things that I choose,
0:24why I hold on to them, why my favourites feel heavier than preferences,
0:27why they sound like stories instead of answers.
0:30But I don't love things lightly.
0:32I love the way a scar loves the skin,
0:34because it remembers what survived.
0:36My favourite animal is an elephant.
0:38Because once, when I was small enough to believe nothing could be lost forever,
0:41I lost one. Somewhere far from home,
0:44in a place that smelled like sun and dust,
0:47my elephant slipped from my hands.
0:49I cried, the kind of cry that doesn't know language yet,
0:52the kind that keeps echoing long after childhood.
0:54I tried to replace it. I bought others that looked familiar.
0:58Soft ears, stitched eyes
0:59and borrowed comfort. But none of them knew me,
1:02not the way the first one did.
1:03So now I will ink it into my skin,
1:05not because I lost it, but because I Learned how to miss.
1:09Blue is my favourite colour,
1:11because love once looked back at Me through it
1:13because the sky Learned his name before I ever did.
1:16Blue is the colour of the eyes that stayed too long in my memory.
1:18Of promises that felt real in the moment
1:20of the way the world looks right before you realise you're already falling.
1:24It reminds me of him. Not the hurt and not the ending,
1:27but the way my heart knew how to open.
1:30My favourite song is November Air,
1:33because November taught me how a season can hold a person.
1:36Because there was a night where the stars felt close enough to listen,
1:39where a blanket and a picnic and a song felt like forever.
1:41He told me it reminded him of me.
1:43And now every November the air carries his voice in it,
1:47not calling me back, but just reminding me that loved ones chose me too.
1:51My favourite verse is Romans 12 2.
1:54Because god found me at my lowest without needing my permission.
1:56Because a voice called when I had nothing left to say
1:59and read words that felt older than my pain.
2:02That I didn't have to become what hurt me.
2:04That renewal was holy, that transformation didn't mean losing myself.
2:08That night, faith stopped being abstract.
2:10It sounded like proof.
2:13My favourite princess is Belle,
2:14because she loved before it was safe and Learned before it was easy.
2:17Because she saw goodness where others only saw damage.
2:20Because she believed in transformation and refused to abandon who she was.
2:23To earn it,
2:25she read while the world misunderstood her,
2:28waited while love Learned how to grow,
2:30and walked towards her future without letting bitterness write her ending.
2:34She reminds me that loving deeply is not the same as staying broken.
2:37All of my favourites come from places that hurt
2:40or loved, or did both at once.
2:42They are not random, but they are evidence.
2:44They prove that I take what tried to break me
2:46and turn it into something I can carry.
2:49That I remember who I was by honouring what shaped me.
2:52I'm made of elephants and verses of Blue Skies and November Nights
2:56and stories I survived and songs that still know my name.
3:00And maybe that's what it means to heal.
3:01Not forgetting what hurt, but choosing to love
3:04what taught you how deeply you could truly feel.